Spring time

Spring time is finally here & it's time to enjoy the sun and also clean the apartment.
Next to my apartment I usually also go through my mobilephone and delete a lot of stuff on it.

Today I did it again and it made me cry. I found the most lovely note on it I've ever received and it reminded me of really good times which ended really bad. But I somehow feel like sharing this cute note with you even tho that person left my life some time ago:

I love the way you look at me when I'm eating, or when you're so in love with me and also when you hold me. How you show me how much love you have for me, the way you caress my skin and look at me deep into my eyes. The way you tickle me and play around with me and how we finish each others sentences or say the same thing at the same time or how we get each others jokes or phrases.
That's what makes me love you and not let you go.

xoxo
Nana

Moving on

I would have never thought that I would ever write a kind of personal blog but I think I will need to keep moving forward.

I know that there are a million of blogs on the Internet that have entries about this topic and this will be one million and one.

Moving forward is the hardest thing to do after a relationship, especially when you are a really emotional person. For me it is still a really hard time, especially since I’m the most emotional person in the universe. After my fiancé left me I broke down and cried a lot. Going back from Los Angeles to Germany without having anything didn’t make it any easier. Luckily I could count on my mother to take care of me. Believe me having a loving family helps. They listen to you and hug you. Maybe sometimes they don’t have the words you want to hear but those words can really open your eyes.

I could also count on my friends to be there for me no matter where in the world they live. They told me that it is okay to cry. Okay they also said that my ex fiancé is a douchebag to let me go and didn’t fight for us, but I told them that I also understand his sight.

I think it is important that you try to understand why the relationship ended because that helps a lot when you want to move on faster than usual. You should remember the good times that you had with each other and smile every day. And also you have to distract yourself. Get your life back together, hang out with friends you haven’t seen in forever, get a new hobby, go workout, party or just cry your eyes out if that helps. There are so many ways to deal with this kind of loss.

I still wish that things would have been different and my fiancé and I would still be together, but I can’t have everything I want and I know that I have to get my own life in check now. I already made a plan and even wrote it down. Finding myself will be hard again but maybe I just create a new self that I will love even more than the old one. Who knows?

I’m gonna start chasing my dreams again and enjoy my new life to the fullest and I still have hope for some things that might be able to happen. I’m still gonna work on my favorite project “Galz love Music” since that is my little baby. This will keep me occupied since there is a lot of stuff that needs to be done.

And for my private blog, there are still updates on comics that are coming up. So you should stay tuned for that.

Love,

Nana